That feeling of doom and anxiety that has followed me like a creepy shadow for the last 14 years really made it's presence known that morning. It's name is Panic Attack. I've had it along with Mr. Vertigo since I was a teenager. Two constants that have made my life difficult and burdensome at times.
I haven't felt like this in months, so why now? Maybe it was because I was getting ready to jump off that theoretical cliff of lost hope. Why was I so scared to leave this cliff full of toil and unhappiness? I guess jumping from one insecurity to dive head first into another kind of uncertainty is cause for panic. Well, I did it without second thought and made the biggest belly flop of the century.
This theoretical jump is referring to the fact that I just quit my job to start a jewelry business. It was the kind of job that paid just the bills and rent - nothing else - only to take my life in return. I won't play with the devil if I'm going to be on the losing end. My life isn't for sale nor is it to compromise with; maybe that belly flop was worth it.
About Me
- R.Deco Jewelry
- While my family is from Hawaii, I was born and raised in Oakland, California. It was in the Bay Area where I gained great respect and reverence for the Art Deco style. Imbued by all the museums, architecture, and vintage stores, my art quickly began to evolve around this vintage movement. I graduated from the California Institute of Jewelry Training in 2002. I learned how to fabricate, solder, polish, saw pierce and repair different types of jewelry as well as stone set, wax carve, cast and enamel. It was there where I also perfected my love for beading and wire wrapping. This is what I love to do - writing was my first love. Jewelry making has passed its rebound stages and has become another great love of mine. And I am very excited to share it all with you.
